My views r changing, n i don't want them to stop....they r rushing from one descending degree to the other, soon they would be below 0 n i would be phlegmatic....i want them to undergo rigorous n harsh rearrangement. Those ideas and decisions should be punished, even though its not their mistake but its indeed a warning.it doesn't give me a chance to get mad n blow my cool away.......it doesnt give me a chance to hate...... n while i m writing this i m being futuristic.......in days to come there would be this bright hour where i wont even write all this because all those things that make me write it wont effect me anymore....

There comes an episode in ur life when u find urself breaking into a million pieces, each thought shattering n falling on the earth so hard that it leaves u deaf. A long chain of merciless hours of just being there n seeing ur self undergoing a complete devastation is like never ending....or maybe u still stay there just to witness how everyone enters in and tramples on those broken shards...all that remains then r those lifeless pieces that u sit next to n moist them with the warmth of ur tears....

...this is one incomplete story... feel free to give it the end according to your own wish, promise, will n reality...the incredible fact is that this story belongs to all of us....only the endings differ...

CHILDHOOD----------

The time when u thought ur teeth bleed because there's some insect stuck in between them....

when u had a strong belief that ur doll's hair would gradually get longer if u oil them......

when a birthday wish to God was a toy u saw in that shopping mall but couldn't get it........

when being a doctor was ur aim for u didnt know of any other profession....

when u would get all so excited seeing a helicopter n cutely wave a "bye bye" to it........

when teacher was the only one u would ever listen to n follow orders of.........

when u would cry for getting a zero on a test....

when sitting on papa's shoulders made u feel like the king of the world.....

:)....Childhood..........when your ignorance was ur innocence.......

There are no rains and the wait seems to get longer. The screams just escape now, into the dry air and autumn seems far away. Dreams, were they? Where in a land, it rained without a reason? Without a question?

I miss my coffee, books along with it. I miss the cocoon which I’d around me which made me feel safe. I miss the comfort of a knitted quilt and the white noise of the loud blaring TV even when none was giving it an ear. One can just talk to it endlessly. I miss my smile more than anything....

I miss the warm hugs, the concerned scolds, the tantrums I threw, the look that I got for missing food, I miss the nights when I slept and slept without a worry.

I miss-Me. I miss-Life… I miss life in me or maybe I miss me in life…

Currently too i am too thinking abt it. It the biggest negative point of i want to get rid of.

I say something bad to someone.and here goes my whole night thinking about-what i did?was it correct?wat will it result into?and endless questions.

Something bad happens wid me,and here goes another night wasting tym to think was I at fault?
wat shuld i do next?and don't knw wat else my stupid tiny brain thinks.

Ahh,i so much hate dis.
Will try to get rid of it.
Its just a document post which will keep reminding me that I think a lot.Hope i don't think the stupid crap anymore and concentrate on many other important things!!!
P:S-Wish me luck!!!!!!

2002,
Ehh? What is friendship day? Enjoy and celebrate being friends? Oh, I didnt knew this!

2004,
Self prepare a friendship band, tie to all my friends! I wanna prove that I'm their friend and I like to see the band what I make for them tied on their hands. Oh yeah, I expect my friends tie it to me too! I am their friend, ain't I?

2006,
I will tie it only to my best friends! No no, she is not my close friend. I will tie only to the people who are close to me and who will in return tie it to me..

2008,
Hey, its friendship day celebration. Lets all wear yellow color dresses and enjoy freaking out. How about a movie? Cool.. Lets all have fun! Its our day to enjoy together.

2009,
Hey, Yeh, I'm coming! Yes for sure.. I have put leave for two days and I will be there on that day. We will go out and have lunch together and may be we can watch some movie if not, go to beach and enjoy! After all, its our day to enjoy. Lets rock!

2010,
Hmmm?? Oh is it? Coming sunday? I want to come but I will not be able to make time and come there. I miss you all a lot and if you all would have been here, it would have been so much fun. We could have enjoyed our day! I guess, this time I have to spend friendship day all alone here!



Friends are special, they walk with us in the journey of life. Some take other route and go away and some stay with us. Still they all are my friends. I enjoy their company. I enjoy talking to them. I like to spend time with them. When I have something to share I have with them around me. When I feel like crying, I have them near by me. When I want to laugh out loudly, they too accompany me. When I want to enjoy my day, they come with me. I have them near to me in my heart. The best thing in life are the people called as "friends" who stays with you for whatever you are.

Every year when the time of celebrating friendship day comes, I get all excited. I feel like I'm enjoying and rejoicing their company with me for so long! But sometimes, we might not get an opportunity to celebrate the time together! Like this year, I want to celebrate it with my close buddies but they are very far as of now! I will not be able to meet them this time!
But but, I promise them that next time when we meet up, lets freak out and enjoy ourselves. That day would be just ours! I don't mind whether that would be the friendship day or whatever it is. I just want to be with you all and enjoy your company.

Every stage of life, leaves foot prints on how we came so far! I have made lots of friends in this journey. I have lost few but I have kept many of them safely in my heart.
When I was small, we neighbors were all of same age of mine. We had a good bonding those days that we never knew it was called friendship. We played, fought, laughed, cried and enjoyed being small.. We even complained,abused and scolded each other. I don't have you people near to me now. You all are far off though each of you are still in contact. I miss you people so much! Without you all, my childhood days wouldn't have been fun.

The friends I made in school were not so close to me. I was very different those days and I had thought that all my school mates were my enemies. Though we enjoyed, played and studied together, we had the feeling called as 'hate' between us. Now when I dont have you people near to me, I realize it was just the time and thoughts that made us think like that. I seriously enjoyed being with you all but never thought about it those days. I miss each one of you who were with me for more than 5 to 6 years.

College life was something very serious and funny that I went through. We knew what exactly we were doing, we knew we were enjoying more than we had to. Sleeping and talking during the class hours, mass bunk to watch movies, skip those afternoon sessions only because it was boring, running affairs, helping others to finish the notes, all those canteen talks, big big bundles of xerox notes that looked untouched, studies which never seemed to be ending, every moment of it is still fresh. I will never forget it. I miss all those wonderful times and the close ones with whom I spent my beautiful college life.



And after this phase, every now and then we make new friends. We come across so many people at our work, at our living place, neighbors, blogsville, friends of friends and so on. Few stay close and few walk away. Everytime this day comes up, I start remembering all my friends from the time I was small to the present. Each and every person has made a very deep foot print in my life. I like to treasure them until I'm alive.

1st August, 2010! The same day again. Year after year I'm still the same, but I have more and more friends who gets close to me day by day. I might not be able to wish them all on this special day. But I remember everyone. I want to thank them here for staying with me, for being with me. I will not be able to meet you all but I can remember you and cherish those memories that I had with you on this day.

Wishing everyone a Very happy friendship day! Enjoy being with friends

Heres to you, my last breath,
heres to you my last step,
heres to you, my last tear,
heres to you,
because i still love you,
everything about you makes me smile, but its not me,
who's smiling anymore,
cuz u took it from me and gave it to her...

heres to you,my only love
heres to you,my only life
heres to you, my only me
heres to you,
because i not longer wish to be,
i tried to give up,
the feeling came back,
i wish it would stop!!!!

heres to you,my first last,
heres to you, my first pill,
heres to you, my first end,
i give it all to you,
because you tore it all away,
you ripped out my heart,
and now everyone has to pay ......
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